Thursday, May 22, 2008


There was one other development over the past 12 months which I really should have mentioned. After I left my ex, I took refuge at my best friend's place, where I stayed up until I moved out last month. The thing is, that 12 month period completely ruined our friendship. I am unsure if I will ever work out the underlying reason behind it, but it went from us hanging out, to me feeling that things were a little bit funny, to me feeling unwelcome and suddenly bottling up all of my feelings, instead of us sharing everything like we used to.

It sucked. Balls.

When I left, I felt an overwhelming sense of relief. This was shortlived, of course, and soon I just became plain sad. Sad saddy sad sad. People grow apart, and this is sometimes for the best, but here is my best friend since we were 13 years old, and hey, now we don't talk anymore.

Today is her birthday. I sent a Happy Birthday sms.

Yes. Balls.

I have an inappropriate nose. It is inappropriate because I had a cold last week, and as a result of this I have a Suddenly Runny Nose every now and then, where I will be quite content and all of a sudden OH SHIT shitty shit I need a tissue RIGHT NOW. This happens when I am on the bus on the way to work, in the middle of the night (it wakes me up), and last night it happened whilst trying to engage in an intimate moment with Beardie. Nothing says SEXY BITCH like dripping snot on somebody, don't you think?

I am so mopey.

5 comments:

water said...

Oh, I don't know... sex and bodily fluids kind of go hand-in-hand. He probably didn't notice the snot.

Hope you and best friend patch things up, or at least get clear on the issues. Muddy waters are yucky.

audrey said...

Dear me, that sucks. My experience is though that time really does heal rifts in friendships. It may repair itself or it may just get to the point where you can hang out again and accept it will never be quite the same.

It ain't over yet baby.

RAT said...

Water, unfortunately he did notice, and the snot sort of spoiled things. But my inappropriate nose seems to be going back to normal now, hooray! Thanks, lovey. Muddy waters do suck.

Thanks Audrey, I am hoping for the second option, if anything. If I could just get past this whole uncomfortable stage soon, that would be tops.

Mark said...

Your mopeyness just isn't as gratifying as I hoped it would be. In fact, it's rather sad. Heh, but at least snot + beard = funny ;)

RAT said...

Mark, yep, well I thought I'd throw something light-hearted and slightly revolting in there to lighten the mood. In general, I am a superhappyfun person though, of course.